I don’t remember a lot of my childhood due to traumatic experiences/repressed memories but what I can recall is being really sad. Like horribly sad. I wish I could go back and hug little kid me. I was so weak and angry. No kid should feel that way. No kid should be homeless. No kid should watch their mom do heroine. No kid should have to constantly hide and lie about their life because a majority of it’s illegal. I’m going to be the best mom. And as terrified as I am, I hope it’s a girl. Because my relationship with my mom was awful, and I need to prove to myself that I can do better. I want to raise my child the way I wish I was raised.